Missed.

I miss...

Us. Together.

But I don't. I really don't.

How can I miss us without missing you?

I feel like...

Like I should miss you.

I miss being with you.

But not

You.

I miss feeling your hand in mine.

I miss the feeling I got

When you pressed your lips to mine.

Is that wrong?

I miss the presence but not the person.

We all know

Us

Was a mistake.

That much was evident.

But I gained from that mistake.

I gained knowledge.

I gained friends.

I gained emptiness

That comes from having someone

And losing them.

Our Us was like a child's phase.

It didn't last long...

And it was a good thing.

I miss your lips on mine.

How I long to be kissed again!

How I miss the feeling in the pit of my stomach

Of being connected to someone like that.

Looking into your eyes...

That's what broke Us.

That's what made our entire togetherness

Become something to be changed.

It's what tore me away from you.

Eyes, windows to the soul.

Yours and mine weren't compatible.

There was no Us after that.

I miss Us.

But I don't miss you.

I am a terrible person for that.

Forgive me.

I don't know how I've gotten on this long

Without the forgiveness of that.

That's what this is about...

Not missing Us.

It's about not missing you

And the forgiveness I crave.

Imagine

Are you ready

To fly?

Like the boy

Who escaped time

Like the man

With the hook

Like the fairy

Chiming

Above their heads?

Are you ready

To sing?

Like the girl

Captured by

The beast

Under a spell

Like the pots and pans

Dancing

Through the castle?

Are you ready

To wish?

Like the boy

With the lamp

And the genie

laughing gaily

Like the magic carpet

Soaring

To whole new worlds?

Are you ready?

I'm On My Way

I'm on my way

I'm trying harder

I'll make it some day

I'll show them how

Cause you're on my mind

But I'm running out of time

I'm fighting the good fight

I'm pushing it farther

I've got you in my sights

I've given this my all

Cause you're on my mind

But I'm running out of time

I'm confident and sure

I'm holding my head high

I'm quiet and demure

I'm taking this time for you

Cause you're on my mind

But I'm running out of time

I'm running out of time

I'm taking far too long

I've got you on my mind

I've got to find a way

Cause you're on my mind

But I'm running out of time

The Shadow's Shadow

While Jaz Hawk sat in her fancy apartment, I ran out into the night. I was kind of laughing at Jaz's face, but a big part of me was really disappointed. I thought her better than that; I thought her memory acute and above average.

I thought she would have remembered me.

It hasn't been that long since I last saw her. Not really. I have changed a lot, but, you see, we were both recruited by the government about four years ago. That would have made Jaz only seventeen; I was nineteen. We both lived in the same town, but we went to different schools, and before we were recruited we had never seen each other.

When the agents first came to me, I would have to say I was scared witless. I thought for sure they were going to lock me up--for reasons unknown to me--but they just wanted to talk. To a teenage college student, though, 'just talk' means 'get you in trouble.' I freaked and ran.

Needless to say, they caught me within a couple minutes. I mean, you can only sneak out the bathroom window and run off if your window is NOT fifty feet off the ground with nothing to break your fall except the ground. So yeah, they got me. I don't know why they still wanted me after that ridiculous stunt...I was such an idiot at that age. Still kind of am, I suppose.

They 'talked' to me, though. They actually talked. They recruited me, and within a day I was on my way to their headquarters in Nowhere, I-can't-tell-you-where. There, I met Jaz, who was in the same situation I was. We were both treated very well, and given the best training anyone could ask for.

Within three years, we became some of the top operatives our age. We also became like brother and sister in those three years. But then Jaz turned twenty.

That's when Jaz decided she wanted to follow a different path. That's when the agency literally went down in flames, and that's when we found out that only someone on the inside could kill someone on the inside.

That's when I was left holding my dead boss while Jaz ran away from the sunset, seeking something more.

Authority

They say

Follow

But we turn

And walk away

They say

Conform

But we change

And walk away

They say

Submit

But we rebel

And walk away

They say

Give

But we take

And walk away

They say

Quiet

But we shout

And walk away

They say

Sit

But we stand

And walk away

They say

Honor

But we laugh

And walk away

He says

Respect

But we spit

And walk away

He says

Love

But we scorn

And walk away

He says

Take

But we refuse

And walk away

He gives

Life

But we choose

To walk away

Outside

You are the only thing I never knew I wanted

And I'm thinking that it's just not right

But you can change my mind; I leave it open

My heart on my sleeve, my head in my hands

They're there for you, if you seek them

Just search a little harder, little deeper

You're aiming for something on the surface that isn't there

It's not open to you, not yet; try harder

That's what they always tell me; run faster

But I'm shooting for the stars, and honestly

I think you're settling for the moon

You can do better than this, better than me

Just look a little farther, pray a little more

I know you're on your knees tonight

You're looking from the outside, like I used to

But now we've switched sides and I'm inside

I can see you looking at me, and I know

But I can't bring myself to let you know

So tell me, will you speak your mind

I want to know if you're going to keep running,

Keep searching, keep going and going

I want to know if I can change anything here

So even though my head says yes yes yes

My heart says no, no, I can't do this

And I knew I didn't need this, so why do you think

That it's what is right here, what is right to you

Why do we have differing views

On the same important things

So Together

When I see

You two

Sitting there, so together

I can't help

But be

Jealous

How does it feel

When he holds you?

When he

Wraps his arms

Around you

And kisses you like that?

How does it feel

When he touches you?

When he

Strokes your cheek

And kisses

Your neck so softly?

When I see

The way

You laugh, so together

I can't help

But be

Sad

How does it feel

When he tells that joke?

When he

Makes your sides split

With that

Wonderful smile?

How does it feel

When he gazes at you?

When he

Stares right at you

And makes

You laugh so hard?

When I see

That light

Between you, so together

I can't help

But be

Lonely